Hope

I dun think i can ever believe in marriages ... not when there are so many unhappy things around me...

Strange ... how one can change their mindset... I used to be the "happily ever after" girl ... now... it becomes "things like tt dun happen in reality" I may sound negative but I guess this is good tool for me to use to protect myself.. being cynical n all... at least I dun get hurt tt bad when it reallie happens.. or so I think...

I dun trust pple easily... no one can be trusted ... just when u least expect it... I wanna live in my protected world where nothing can hurt me... but I am wrong...even the tiniest thing stings like hell... U think that nothing can hurt u more when ur world came tumbling down ... u are wrong... even the slightest mistake makes u cringe... coz u had seen so much... heard so much.. u know the amount of pain u need to endure again coz u had been thru it so many times but u can do nothing to stop it...

I will be strong... or so I hope... I hope everything will go away... I hope everything did not happen... I hope it will all disappear... be like wat it used to be... but it can never happen.. not after all these..

At least I know I still got u... u are the only one that keeps me sane ... keeps my hopes alive..